A Hudgell's Ramblings

Living Life Out Loud: is about adventures, keeping accountability, and the occasional rant!

Hi, I’m Jade. I am currently 37 years old and I have created this space, for me to note down my year, something to look back on, an area to keep me accountable and somewhere for me to get the words that float around my mind onto a page.

I am creating this space for selfish reasons; a place to share my thoughts, feelings, the happy and sad moments in life. I want to keep things real and in the moment.

This is a space where I can express myself freely through words. Journaling is meant to be liberating, so why not do it online, the internet is forever after all.

“You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough.” – Mae West

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I am a mum to the most amazing boy, a girlfriend to Benjamin, a nearly divorced women, a friend to some amazing people, a daughter, and a manager for a LD charity.

Do you find it hard to talk about yourself?

Often, the negatives come to mind more quickly than the positives because we tend to be more self-deprecating. But we all have good qualities, features, and experiences worth sharing.

I consider myself a kind person; sometimes, maybe too kind. Yet, that’s just who I am. I am full of empathy and sympathy for others, which makes me good at my job, a supportive friend and I would like to think, a pretty good partner. It’s also perhaps why I stayed in a marriage longer than I should have, but that’s a story for another time.

I am an extrovert, I’ve been told I could make a conversation in an empty room. A friend once told me, “Jade, you don’t need to talk to everyone,” but I love people and although they can be frustrating at times, but I have a passion for understanding what makes each person unique and how I can learn from them.

Connecting with the world is something I adore. I often go and do things alone and make it a point to talk to new people. I smile at strangers, start conversations in queues, and laugh at jokes I don’t always get, because I truly enjoy interacting with others.

I am overweight, plus sized, larger than I should be, big-boned, but really I am just a fatty. While I don’t completely hate my body, I don’t fully love it either. This year, I’m committed to learning to appreciate the skin I’m in again. I want to feel comfortable in my clothes, look in the mirror and enjoy what I see, and ultimately feel more like myself.

I’m discovering my style, my look, stepping away from my comfort zones. I’m not a fashionista, but my Benjamin is. He has encouraged me to be confident with colours and has picked out clothes I never would have chosen for myself! He’s like my personal Gok Wan, just a ever so slightly less flamboyant!

So, if you’re reading this, have fun and enjoy the ride!