Oh, I wanted to document how I was each week so I could look back and see how my year went…then I neglected that, why, I don’t really have an answer. But we start again…
We are finally in February, after what seemed to be the longest month that ever happened. So, we can review January, see what went down. See what we achieved….
This is Tyler. And this is my grandad, Tyler’s great grandad. He is an amazing human, he worked hard throughout his life, supported his family and created wonderful memories. There was a time when we did not really see each other, but when I told my nan and grandad I was pregnant, it all connected again. They are both my role models. I love them dearly.
My grandad has not been very well recently. Struggling with an illness that resulted in him needed it an operations to remove his kidney. We were told it was a 50/50 chance. This photo was from a bittersweet moment, we went to see them only for a night. And it could have been the last time. Luckily, however, a slow and successful recovery is happening and me and Tyler are so happy. We may not be able to see them as often as we would like, due to the distance, but we would drop everything to be there for them. 💕
Me and Benjamin went to watch 28 days later in concert, it was amazing. The film is firm fave of mine.
There is a scene in the film where they go to a set of ruins, those ruins are just down the road from me. Benjamin finally took me there last year and I was thrilled. This series of films is amazing and the fact they have the new films out now, is just perfection.
Work has been stressful.
Benjamin had a birthday! We took some days off together and went shopping, where we spent more than we should but less than we thought. Then we went to London, to have cake, and look at some art. It was a lush couple days. Really enjoyed it. Plus just spending time with Benjamin is really one of those things I crave, as we sometimes feel like passing ships in the wind.
The lows. I have been struggling with my mental health recently, I am constantly stressed, feeling guilty all the time and really struggling to find the motivation to be anything for myself. I consistently feel like I need to mask and just deal with the issues with the aged old way of bottling up.
But that needed to stop, I needed to take a moment and think about the things I can control in my life, to help me regain some of me, help me refocus on the world.
So, I joined a coach, someone I’ve known for a while. He was supporting a friend through her journey, and I felt this was a way to get some accountability. I’m a week into the program, and I’ll break that down more for you next time, but I feel better, not 100% but better.
I saw meme that stated
“January came with so much baggage from last year, my new year starts in February,”
I think this is exactly what I feel,
So, with that. Happy New Year and let’s get 2026 out on the best footing,,,
*leaves the chat….✌🏼
A Hudgell's Ramblings 
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